Still Another ResolutionPosted February 12 2013
I like New Year's resolutions. The year doesn't feel like a fresh start without a good resolution. However, I've learned that resolutions about diet, exercise, drink, organization or scheduling are doomed to fail. So I'm taking a new tact. I'm going to try to change an attitude instead.
So here it is:
I resolve to put my pursuit and exploration regarding my art above my fear and insecurities about my art.
I can find more reasons to not promote myself, try new things, attack edgy subjects, do live demos… or for that matter even show friends what I've been doing, than is emotionally healthy. On bad days (or no clean clothes), doing laundry takes on a higher importance.
I have no idea from whence my mindset comes. Certainly my loved ones have all been encouraging. Plus, I love to share my enthusiasm for painting… just not my paintings.
Like so many of you, I wish I'd gone to art school. I have this idea that I'd know all I'd need to know about being a real artist if I'd gone through an official art program. I did take art classes in college, but it was during the counterculture era. It was all about self-expression and god forbid that we'd settle down and learn about drawing, color theory, and anatomy. So now I try to study what I think is lacking, but still, the confidence isn't there.
But life is what it is. Let someone other than myself get hung up and limit themselves with self-doubt. I resolve to put my pursuit and exploration regarding my art above my fear and insecurities about my art.
May you surpass your dreams of creativity! With fondness for all my fellow travelers on the artistic path - Happy New Year.